Go ahead, judge me.

Hey there old blogspot. It's been a really long decay since I made a blog here. Why is it that I do come here once in a while and do a blog when no one really read this kind of post - That's what I'm trying to figure out since day one I suppose. I swore to myself that I was going to update my blogspot already but as I try to clear up my mind it seems that It just keeps puzzling much more, I tried to think of something to write but my fingers brushed through my hair, as I waited for a response to filter through my mind and out of my fingertips. But nothing would come. I paused momentarily, placing my index finger between my teeth before biting down on the nail. Then I realized I temporarily just had a big black out in my mind. Many things had happened for the past months. Good and bad.

I was just too sick and tired

From the feeling where I have to wake up every morning just to go to school and to hear some things from teachers that will make me hate going to that place again. But I have to because It's the law.


Of all the chaos that had happened before, How dramatic my life was. As I go to bed every single night, I tend to just stare for hours as my eyes wander at these four walls of my room. Reaching for help in silence. I was on the edge of breaking down into tiny pieces. Sinking into my conscience and turning into dust called cowardice.

Until it hits me. I perceived what I wanted and what I need to attain. Build myself again was a must. I confirmed it to my mind to pursue that goal without anymore options or backing out. It's like making a broken glass due to being so careless and too immature for a thought. Though you didn't like to build it. You could just buy a new one. People won't mind. But the fact that I tried to built this broken glass in front of many people not because I wanted to impress them. It's because I wanted to make it to the end. The hard way. To feel what it's like to accomplish a goal that is REAL and because of hard work and dedication.

AND FINALLY I MADE IT.

but then again
PROCRASTINATION WAS MY NAME BEFORE and maybe until now they'll see me as that kind of person. First impression is one big thing & I guess that thing can't be erase anymore by the minds of the same breed that I'm living & seeing with on a daily basis, which I don't mind at all. We're people, we're SINNERS. We do judge others, bash others, somehow. But some others ABUSE it and becomes a sickness that they don't even know they have it because it became part of there daily basis as well.

but let's just ignore the last part, the good thing about this post is I did it. I did it but now I'm on my way to a new test. Challenges come along really fast do they? Or maybe this is just what we call
LIFE