Happiness is a bit depressing. Makes someone lack of self worth.
I don't want to hurt you, it's just that I feel like I have to.
I need someone who understands me. Can someone understand me?
Can I be anyone else but me?
I need to get away. I need love.
It's too much yet so empty.
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Things don't have to make perfect sense. Trying to force someone into situation just hurts more.
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Summer dreams ripped at the seams, but-uh oh, those summer nights.
(What do you expect from me? I'm a teenager.)
Favourite T.V./Online Show Atm.
(The Secret Life of The American Teenager)
The Secret Life is already on it's 4th Season. It doesn't air in the Philippines but I watch it online. The first time I watched it - I got really caught up to it that I watched the whole season for almost 3 hours on my room.
It is basically about Amy Juergens, the fifteen year old good girl who got pregnant on her sophomore year in High School from a schoolmate in Summer Band Camp named Ricky Underwood who tricked her into a one night stand. Ricky who plays a bad boy is sixteen year old who has a troubled history & emotional issues about her family.
While Ricky has a girlfriend named Adrian Lee a sixteen year old girl who plays the slut in the school due to her everyday casual sex with guys.
The story has so many twist and turns, it's not all about the fifteen year old girl who got pregnant but It's all about High School and all the Secret Lives of the teenagers in America, but probably not just America because this kind of problems happen in many teenagers around the world.
The show is far more realistic than "Gossip Girl" but sometimes, some scope makes it unbelievable. As I've said; It has so many twist and turns that you have to start all over from season 1 so you can understand the whole story which is hard because In every episode there's something new or rather something shocking that had happened.
My favorite character would be
(Ashley Juergens)
I'am really captivated by Ashley Juergens in the show. She is very realistic, and has a great smart-alic humor towards her sister. A smart 13 year old who understand problems not like other around her age & She has a big heart under all that sarcasm. That's what I love about her.
Saturday, April 17, 2010
All you do was proving me right.
I'm moving up to a whole new level. I just graduated (class 09-10). By that it means moving to college which I'm still confuse by the fact that it's already May and I still don't know what school I'm going into.
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I'm turning 16 this July and I'm a bit wary. Who I'll be inviting. I know, my friends in high school will be busy by that, because of being a college student. Adjusting in a whole new environment. Everything will be new, mode of transportation, individuality, self-finding again, and additional to that is the study habit.
But the hardest thing by that is finding the type of friends you'll get along with. For sure everyone will be preoccupied with being accepted and by being accepted, you most definitely have/need to fit in. To fit in, you have to be normal as the elite you are into, and to be normal you have to be the same as everyone else is. Well, why try so hard to be accepted if it means compromising who you really are? What's wrong with being different? You can try changing ways from who you really are even for years just to be the same as everyone else, but no matter what happens you'll always be DIFFERENT. You just made yourself a joke If you'll try so hard to be accepted. People will LOVE you for what you are, not what your trying to be. And if they don't, then they don't deserve you. At all.
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We are all suppose to be different. We all have unique thoughts. God made humans with unique fingerprint. No matter how hard anyone tries to take away individuality, it will always be there. We were all born different. Each and everyone of us whose living in this planet Earth. Do what you want, say what you think, dress whichever way you wish, and be whoever you want to be. That is what true happiness is all about.
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BE YOURSELF, and not let anyone or anything prevent you from doing so.
And if people try to call you WEIRD, that's great! That is a good thing. Weird means off-center, unique & different from everyone else. Why try to FIT IN, when you were born to STAND OUT. To be normal means to be forgotten. Because when everyone is long gone in another place, doing their own thing. Who do you think they'll remember? The kid who blended in? Or the kid who stood out? Don't you want to be remembered? If you pick the other way around then it's fine with me. It's your life, not mine. but just remember:
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter won't mind." - My A.p. project
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I'm turning 16 this July and I'm a bit wary. Who I'll be inviting. I know, my friends in high school will be busy by that, because of being a college student. Adjusting in a whole new environment. Everything will be new, mode of transportation, individuality, self-finding again, and additional to that is the study habit.
But the hardest thing by that is finding the type of friends you'll get along with. For sure everyone will be preoccupied with being accepted and by being accepted, you most definitely have/need to fit in. To fit in, you have to be normal as the elite you are into, and to be normal you have to be the same as everyone else is. Well, why try so hard to be accepted if it means compromising who you really are? What's wrong with being different? You can try changing ways from who you really are even for years just to be the same as everyone else, but no matter what happens you'll always be DIFFERENT. You just made yourself a joke If you'll try so hard to be accepted. People will LOVE you for what you are, not what your trying to be. And if they don't, then they don't deserve you. At all.
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We are all suppose to be different. We all have unique thoughts. God made humans with unique fingerprint. No matter how hard anyone tries to take away individuality, it will always be there. We were all born different. Each and everyone of us whose living in this planet Earth. Do what you want, say what you think, dress whichever way you wish, and be whoever you want to be. That is what true happiness is all about.
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BE YOURSELF, and not let anyone or anything prevent you from doing so.
And if people try to call you WEIRD, that's great! That is a good thing. Weird means off-center, unique & different from everyone else. Why try to FIT IN, when you were born to STAND OUT. To be normal means to be forgotten. Because when everyone is long gone in another place, doing their own thing. Who do you think they'll remember? The kid who blended in? Or the kid who stood out? Don't you want to be remembered? If you pick the other way around then it's fine with me. It's your life, not mine. but just remember:
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter won't mind." - My A.p. project
Friday, April 16, 2010
Money is the rule of all evil, always remember that!
You've tried to be different among the other roses but whatever you do It just keeps on showing what your true color is.
I'm sick and tired of
How ignorant you can get. I thought you were different from the elite but I guess your exactly one of them too. I hate to label people but this is what you really need to hear. I was showing to much inferiority and all you did was judging me. People do change. Or maybe you just hid who you really are.
You were special to me not because of your POWER. Your were special to me because you were DIFFERENT from the others.
NO ONE is going to steal or take that POWER from you, You can have all the POWER you want. but remember; Too much power can be a curse sometimes. I Hope you find LOVE from MONEY, POWER & FAME. If you do please tell me and I'll take all my words back.
I'm sick and tired of
How ignorant you can get. I thought you were different from the elite but I guess your exactly one of them too. I hate to label people but this is what you really need to hear. I was showing to much inferiority and all you did was judging me. People do change. Or maybe you just hid who you really are.
You were special to me not because of your POWER. Your were special to me because you were DIFFERENT from the others.
NO ONE is going to steal or take that POWER from you, You can have all the POWER you want. but remember; Too much power can be a curse sometimes. I Hope you find LOVE from MONEY, POWER & FAME. If you do please tell me and I'll take all my words back.
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Go ahead, judge me.
Hey there old blogspot. It's been a really long decay since I made a blog here. Why is it that I do come here once in a while and do a blog when no one really read this kind of post - That's what I'm trying to figure out since day one I suppose. I swore to myself that I was going to update my blogspot already but as I try to clear up my mind it seems that It just keeps puzzling much more, I tried to think of something to write but my fingers brushed through my hair, as I waited for a response to filter through my mind and out of my fingertips. But nothing would come. I paused momentarily, placing my index finger between my teeth before biting down on the nail. Then I realized I temporarily just had a big black out in my mind. Many things had happened for the past months. Good and bad.
I was just too sick and tired
From the feeling where I have to wake up every morning just to go to school and to hear some things from teachers that will make me hate going to that place again. But I have to because It's the law.
Of all the chaos that had happened before, How dramatic my life was. As I go to bed every single night, I tend to just stare for hours as my eyes wander at these four walls of my room. Reaching for help in silence. I was on the edge of breaking down into tiny pieces. Sinking into my conscience and turning into dust called cowardice.
Until it hits me. I perceived what I wanted and what I need to attain. Build myself again was a must. I confirmed it to my mind to pursue that goal without anymore options or backing out. It's like making a broken glass due to being so careless and too immature for a thought. Though you didn't like to build it. You could just buy a new one. People won't mind. But the fact that I tried to built this broken glass in front of many people not because I wanted to impress them. It's because I wanted to make it to the end. The hard way. To feel what it's like to accomplish a goal that is REAL and because of hard work and dedication.
AND FINALLY I MADE IT.
but then again
PROCRASTINATION WAS MY NAME BEFORE and maybe until now they'll see me as that kind of person. First impression is one big thing & I guess that thing can't be erase anymore by the minds of the same breed that I'm living & seeing with on a daily basis, which I don't mind at all. We're people, we're SINNERS. We do judge others, bash others, somehow. But some others ABUSE it and becomes a sickness that they don't even know they have it because it became part of there daily basis as well.
but let's just ignore the last part, the good thing about this post is I did it. I did it but now I'm on my way to a new test. Challenges come along really fast do they? Or maybe this is just what we call
LIFE
I was just too sick and tired
From the feeling where I have to wake up every morning just to go to school and to hear some things from teachers that will make me hate going to that place again. But I have to because It's the law.
Of all the chaos that had happened before, How dramatic my life was. As I go to bed every single night, I tend to just stare for hours as my eyes wander at these four walls of my room. Reaching for help in silence. I was on the edge of breaking down into tiny pieces. Sinking into my conscience and turning into dust called cowardice.
Until it hits me. I perceived what I wanted and what I need to attain. Build myself again was a must. I confirmed it to my mind to pursue that goal without anymore options or backing out. It's like making a broken glass due to being so careless and too immature for a thought. Though you didn't like to build it. You could just buy a new one. People won't mind. But the fact that I tried to built this broken glass in front of many people not because I wanted to impress them. It's because I wanted to make it to the end. The hard way. To feel what it's like to accomplish a goal that is REAL and because of hard work and dedication.
AND FINALLY I MADE IT.
but then again
PROCRASTINATION WAS MY NAME BEFORE and maybe until now they'll see me as that kind of person. First impression is one big thing & I guess that thing can't be erase anymore by the minds of the same breed that I'm living & seeing with on a daily basis, which I don't mind at all. We're people, we're SINNERS. We do judge others, bash others, somehow. But some others ABUSE it and becomes a sickness that they don't even know they have it because it became part of there daily basis as well.
but let's just ignore the last part, the good thing about this post is I did it. I did it but now I'm on my way to a new test. Challenges come along really fast do they? Or maybe this is just what we call
LIFE
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