Okay, I'll update it. :)

It's been a really long time since the last time I checked this blog, well I was a bit busy for the past month and I totally forgot about this stuffs (blogs, vlogs, twitter).
Where should I start? okaay. For the past holiday vacation, everything seems to move way too fast. I've changed for the bad (abit) and for the better. I didn't regret every single thing I've done, well... maybe I did but it's part of growing up. It's part of life, I guess. Maybe ignorant/immature people won't understand how this things go.
That vacation felt like a one whole year for me and a one whole lesson.
I can't really explain how it is, but I guess I've grown way too much than I could possibly think I would.
I'm not really in a mood to tell you why because the stories are way too personal and my head still hurts, but I have to say it was truly amazing how it turned out to be. How it all happened to me in just 1 month. The things I truly wanted to happen for the past year just happened in a month and how I saw the positive and negative side of it, which is great 'cause it's a fresh new start for me this year. I was too afraid that I might lose control, but I know myself.
I may look like I don't care about everything but I swear I do. I never show it to people but I do care for myself, and to everything that is around me. I know what's right and wrong, I know how to "mangapa".

That's why nung retreat hindi ako masyadong nag-open and I never plan to open anything, 'cause I know what I'm suppose to do, I know what's wrong about me. Maybe I was just to afraid to accept my faults and flaws, because I know it already. It's just hard to do, I guess It's really hard to change but If your really willing to pursue that maybe you will.

but I'm not going to say na "eto new years resolution ko. bla bla bla" I never really wanted to have one, siguro ayoko lang. Madidisappoint lang ako kung hindi ko yan nagawa. Ganun naman lage, magsasabe ako ng ganito tas di ko magagawa. Maybe one reason I hated about myself is that I never really come out of my shell. hmm. ewan

:)))) I really don't know what im talking about, mali mali na siguro grammar ko dito dahil derederecho lang ako magtype na parang walang bukas. but i guess i really need to update this na o. linalangaw na e.