Sunday, July 10, 2011
I'm really back.
Hi I'm Era. I may come off as quiet, shy, awkward, really awkward. If you're my friend then you're lucky enough to see who I really am. I choose my friends. Yes, I really do. Many things had happened. It's not the same anymore. But I'm here for a change. =)
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
I'm gonna find you someday.
Dear Future Boyfriend,
I'm gonna find you someday, somewhere. When I'm not searching, when I'm not looking, when I'm not trying, that's when I'll find you. Love comes and I'll wait. I don't want to rush things out just for me to move on. That's just dumb. I may not look at love the way I did before, I may not be as easy to fall like I was before, I may not be open at first like I was before, I may not trust like I trust him before. But I'm very welcome for you to change that. Little by little does the trick. Because I believe that If you can't handle my worse. Then you don't deserve me at my best. And once I find you, the one who could handle me both side. I'll never let you go. I'll never repeat the same mistakes that I did before. I'm sorry that you weren't my first everything but I promise you that you'd be my last and my forever everything.
I've got so much love in my heart, it's just that I'm scared. I had a hole in my heart for too long, I've been played for too long, I've been down for too long. My heart has been broken so much, but he fixed it with a glue gun, and everything else turned fine but even though it's fixed once more, it's easily torn. That just proves that I don't need a boy with a glue, I need a boy who's going to give me a new heart, and a fresh start.
I may not see you today, tomorrow, next month, next year, next 5 years. But I'm gonna find you someday when I least expect it.
I'm gonna find you someday, somewhere. When I'm not searching, when I'm not looking, when I'm not trying, that's when I'll find you. Love comes and I'll wait. I don't want to rush things out just for me to move on. That's just dumb. I may not look at love the way I did before, I may not be as easy to fall like I was before, I may not be open at first like I was before, I may not trust like I trust him before. But I'm very welcome for you to change that. Little by little does the trick. Because I believe that If you can't handle my worse. Then you don't deserve me at my best. And once I find you, the one who could handle me both side. I'll never let you go. I'll never repeat the same mistakes that I did before. I'm sorry that you weren't my first everything but I promise you that you'd be my last and my forever everything.
I've got so much love in my heart, it's just that I'm scared. I had a hole in my heart for too long, I've been played for too long, I've been down for too long. My heart has been broken so much, but he fixed it with a glue gun, and everything else turned fine but even though it's fixed once more, it's easily torn. That just proves that I don't need a boy with a glue, I need a boy who's going to give me a new heart, and a fresh start.
I may not see you today, tomorrow, next month, next year, next 5 years. But I'm gonna find you someday when I least expect it.
Love,
Era "Your future everything"
Era "Your future everything"
I'm back.
Well I'm not gonna stay for long. :|
I just need a place to get this shit out. You know the feeling where you just knew something that made you mad. Like, if your friend just talk back at you or you're boyfriend just cheated on you. You know the feeling when someone else is telling you the situation. It feels like "No.. No.. No.. I don't want to hear it.. Fucking shit! Stop you douchebag! I'm sinking to death.. No!! Ok go on.. Motherfuck.. No way. No!! Continue bitch!" You know when you feel like you don't want to hear it but you have to. It's like continuing to torture yourself but you try to stop but you still continue all over again. Just to not look stupid anymore. That happened to me once. Or twice. Can't remember. And I don't want that feeling to happen again. :| It just makes me freak out even more. I have a bad disposition and I don't want it to get worse. So FUCK OFF If you are one of those people who'll bring problems in my life.
I just need a place to get this shit out. You know the feeling where you just knew something that made you mad. Like, if your friend just talk back at you or you're boyfriend just cheated on you. You know the feeling when someone else is telling you the situation. It feels like "No.. No.. No.. I don't want to hear it.. Fucking shit! Stop you douchebag! I'm sinking to death.. No!! Ok go on.. Motherfuck.. No way. No!! Continue bitch!" You know when you feel like you don't want to hear it but you have to. It's like continuing to torture yourself but you try to stop but you still continue all over again. Just to not look stupid anymore. That happened to me once. Or twice. Can't remember. And I don't want that feeling to happen again. :| It just makes me freak out even more. I have a bad disposition and I don't want it to get worse. So FUCK OFF If you are one of those people who'll bring problems in my life.
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